Despite the music--there is some pretty nice pics of handsome "Cool
Hand Luke" here! RIP!

Haven't blogged in awhile.......I don't even know why I attempt.
Don't know if anyone is reading. Can't imagine that I'm very
entertaining.
I opened another blog. Why? Seems my ever changing life
has changed yet again. I haven't even been keeping up with
the other blog. I lose interest so easily. Then too I get
busy or I just don't know what to say/write.
For those of you who may peek in, here's the news:
I'm pregnant! Can't believe it. Can honestly say this
was not on my agenda nor something I planned. Yes, I know
how it happened but still can't believe it just the same.
I'm nervous and clueless really.

I keep thinking I should just delete this blog but somehow
I don't due to all the time, effort, tears, smiles that this
blog has brought.
BTW, I was looking thru my blog I found this little
ditty I wrote March 2007

2.) Do you want to have kids and why or why not?
I don't know if I want to have kids. Heck! I'm not
getting any younger. I am 36. I don't want to say
no I don't want kids and then something happens
and I get pregnant. Wouldn't that make me sound
unexcited or ungreatful or not ready or disappointed?
I also must mention somethings here:
I have never really had a desire to have children
as some women do. The whole child birth thing
scares me to death! I mean everything. From
carrying the child in my body for 9 months,
to being able to be the parent I want to be,
to raising a child in this sometimes big ole
scary world. So much responsibility. Could
I handle it? Would I be a good mother?
Also, my ob/gyn told me I don't produce an
egg normally so she would have to put me
on fertility medicine to conceive. I don't
like to take medicine. I try not to pop
ibuprofen when I have a headache or when
I'm having "womanly" discomforts. I am
not on birth control. Have hardly taken
birth control. Nothing is happening.
But as I tell everyone, if it happens,
it happens and I probably would be happy
because God blessed me with a little life
inside me. I just hope if that does happen
that I would do a good job. I know I have
alot of love to give.

Little did I know..............