I will be going in for scheduled c-section
at 5:30 p.m.
Looks like little Lily will be here
tomorrow night.
I am not ready. Don't believe I ever
will be. Is anyone ever really prepared?
I am having intermittent moments of
nervousness, fearfulness, bewilderment,
anxiousness.
Everyone says relax and I can't really.
Everyone says that it will be ok. How do they really know?
Everyone keeps saying I'll be a good mom. How do they know that?
My mind keeps going a mile a minute. I can only imagine
just how freaked I will be tomorrow.
I so hope they will give me something immediately
to calm me down....that is if I haven't stroked out or
had a heart attack first.
Praying for calm and peace and mostly a healthy baby!
Update-
As of Tuesday, April 7, my last doc appointment
I was told that she wanted to induce me on Thursday,
April 16th. No reason given. So of course, I said I
would rather not. Why not wait till actual
due date of April 23rd? Then I was told that
I could be having a C-section since I am built
very narrow.
Two things I was not expecting to hear.
Doc wanted me take the weekend to think about it.
I am still leaning on waiting till the 23rd.
I know my doc will not let me go past my due date.
Next doc appointment is April 14.
If she gives me a real reason to go on and be induced
then perhaps I will consider it more seriously.
I know this is all natural but I as I have said before
this is ALL new to me. Still not ready.....and I wonder
if I ever will be?
Have you ever tried to imagine just how something will be?
Well, that's me and motherhood, just can't seem to wrap
my brain around the concept. Makes me so apprehensive and
bit embarrassed. Shouldn't I be excited and full of anticipation?
Instead, I still am in disbelief and full of apprehension.
Guess I will soon be having to get over it.
Blessings!
Friendly comments appreciated.
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♥ I belive in God and I'm not ashamed to admit it. I don't consider myself religious but I am very spiritual. I believe that God is closer to us than our own spirit.♥ I am a sinner. I am a saint. I am a work in progress. I try to be good, do good but I do stray from the path from time to time.♥ I try to be positive and sometimes it is quite difficult. I still keep trying, believing, hoping, dreaming.♥ I believe in smiling; Looking people in the eyes. I have a big ole heart. I care.♥ I am a worrier, goofball, romantic, a lover of animal, veteran and nature causes.♥ I believe in treating others with respect and dignity, having faith, rooting for the underdog, doing onto others as you want done onto yourself, telling the truth, being kind, supporting and encouraging, standing up for what I believe and value, having a sense of humor, being thankful being accountable, committed and recognizing limitations.♥ I strive to keep learning and growing.♥ I try not to judge but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't sometimes judgemental. I try to have an open mind and love all for who they are to me.♥
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