How long have you been blogging?
How long do you think you will keep blogging?
I have to be honest and say lately I haven't really felt like blogging.
I haven't had so much to share. Or maybe it's the things I want to
share that I just don't think anyone would be interested to read. And oh so many times I have reached out to anonymous bloggers to be somewhat of a blogger friend or should I say some fellow blog acquaintance and nothing happens. No return comments. No reaching back.
And then again, this is my little area that I can put whatever I want for me. Then again, I have seriously considered that since it's for me, maybe then I should just jot it down in a journal. I dunno.
Has blogging lost it's appeal to me? I think I have met some really cool, really interesting bloggers. But then have I really met you? I think alot of us hide behind our blogs knowing we will never know each other. We can blog about whatever. We could lie or tell half truths. We could paint a whole, untrue picture of ourselves that is not what we are. How would anyone know? And then too, do we really even know how we really come across to others? Maybe what we see and what others see is vastly different.
I have already seen alot here in blogland. I have read things that have touched my heart. I have read things that shocked me. I have seen alot of different people out there. Some full of hate and bitterness.Some so inspirational and beautiful. Some dying for attention. Some I have wondered if things I have read were false or true. Is blogland a fantasy land with bits of reality from time to time? Or just pure fantasy? A place to dwell to be a peeping Tom. I wonder how many actually read my blog. I wonder how many don't comment. I wonder if I have touched anyone.
I wonder how long I will stay here. Life is so busy and yet I have found time to write bits and pieces. Share a bit of myself yet only the tip of my iceberg. So much of me still hidden. So much of me I have to keep for me. I am a very honest open person. I have been genuine. It's just lately I feel as I am in make believe or part of a cartoon and I am sometimes the only human figure in the comic strip. Blogging use to be fun. Maybe I'm just in a rut. I just don't feel I am being very useful here. I don't feel that what I have to share is entertaining or as entertaining to me as it once was. Do I dare bid adieu? Do I bow out? Do I slip away? Just as life does, blogging will go on without me.