As I mentioned before, in some previous post,
I resigned from my job. A job that I have
loved and hated. A job that I have been with
for eight years.
I gave them a three week notice.
I have one more week to go.
I have found myself at times thru the
past two weeks marking off my calender
as if I was in prison and I "X" off the days.
I do have another job that I am
very excited to have.
A new job with new opportunities
and challenges. I feel I really need
that for I feel I have been in a rut
for far too long.
I am full of emotion right now.
I am sad to be leaving my 'old' job
but I felt that I must take a risk
and leave. I didn't feel things were
going right so I felt this was the
right moment to take a chance.
Spread my wings. Test my abilities.
Also, I am a bit bitter because I feel that
I have been through alot at my 'old' job
and was treated unfairly in alot of ways.
I feel melancholy since as I have mentioned
I have been there a fairly long time. It's
like leaving a relationship.
I keep thinking about how I have been married
for almost nine years and I have worked there
for eight years.
I do have some really loving friends that have I worked with.
They have been there for me thru so much more than
just work, but life's trials and tribulations.
I do hope that we remain friends once I am gone.
I also find myself wondering if I will be missed.
I do feel I was such a true part of 'the team',
of this office for so long, thru many changes of
policy, job descriptions, and employees and then
there were the times that I felt like an outsider.
I feel I am going thru a big life change right now.
I sometimes think I'm in denial, that in one
week it will truly be over. Am I truly grasping that
it will be no more?
Am I in shock? This is really happening?!
I leave my 'old' job on Friday, June 22nd.
Start the new job Monday, June 25th.
There is part of me that is worrying about
how I am harboring some anger and bitterness
and I got to let that go. I must not take
that with me to the new place.
It is a fresh slate where I hope that I learn
and grow. I was feeling quite stagnate in the
'old' job.
There is part of me that wishes I had taken
a break between jobs but it's too late now.
I must only take the weekend in between to
pump myself full of positiviy to start anew.