I guess you could say I am in a bit of a dilemma.
So if you would kindly give me your opinion.
You see I am supposed to go to Myrtle Beach
in May. Biker's Week. I went last year.
This year it is even more expensive since
the room that is already booked/reserved is bigger, better.
Everyone of us 3 will have our own room and
bathroom. I have to come up with the money for
my part of the room by the beginning of March.
My part of the room is like $466 for 8 nights,
I think, which is a good deal! But it's almost twice
of what I paid last year. We haven't booked
our flight yet. Everything that I have seen so
far in airline prices (flying from our local airport)
is sooooo expensive, even with the $100 voucher
we got last year from
missing a connecting flight home.
I have found a flight cheaper in another city
that isn't that far. But then who do we get to
drive us to that airport? Now that's not the dilemma.
I keep thinking about the huge expensive of it all.
I have to have spending money, you know. Food, drinks,
souveneirs. I am not going away on vacation to be
totally cheap!!! I keep thinking that I could
be doing so much with this money that I
would be spending for my excursion. Things like
pay down my credit card. Or the possibility of
buying a new living room furniture which we
really need. I also keep thinking about that the people I
am to go with are the same 2 I went with last
year. I guess you could say they are a bit
wilder than me and single. They both have interests
in some guys that they met last year and who they
have been keeping in contact with. I have this
feeling that they are going to want to spend alot
of time with these guys. Which I don't blame them.
So that leaves me to do what? Hang out by myself?
I do have friends that I know there but I don't feel
like being a burden on them the whole time.
And then they are gonna want to do the biker thing
too while they are there. You know like tinkering
with there bikes, showing off their bikes and
having guy time. There will be times that
I know I will have to entertain myself and that
is fine. I know how to entertain myself and
I have no problem walking somewhere. But who really
wants to go on vacation with 2 other people
to be by themself? Not that I think they are not
gonna have anything to do with me the whole time
we are there. However, the 2's company, 3's a crowd
saying does keep popping in my head.
Also, there is no outdoor pool for me to
sunbathe. I love to lay by the pool, chill
out, or people watch or read, or snooze.
Last year I went off by myself one afternoon and slept on
the beach. I don't want to be lonely while I am there.
I also can't hang as long. The people I am going with
stay out much later than me and that is fine. I
took my butt back to the room before them every night
last year! There is just so much drinking and sitting
on a bar stool that I can do. I don't feel like
riding all over Timbuktu either. I am a bit fearful
of all the riding and being stuck somewhere waiting
for my driver to take me all the way back to my room!
I will ride in close proximity to where I know but
outside of that, go ahead and call me no fun, I am
just not doing it!
Also, I keep thinking that I haven't been on vacation
with my husband since September 2006 when we went to
Myrtle Beach. I do have a good time with my husband
on vacation but we always drive to where ever we go.
I HATE the driving part. I would much rather knock it
out by flying and I am fearful of flying too. I
have to say that when I go with my husband it definitely
isn't as expensive for me, we eat better, I get more rest and
I'm not lonely.
But then, I don't even know if my husband
is gonna want to go on vacation this year!!!!!!!!
He's not a planner like me.
I know if I decide not to go come May and Biker Week
time and I will be regretting not going but I also
know that I don't want to be stuck there wishing I
hadn't gone becuz I am lonely and bored.
But is it worth going to my beloved beach and getting
to be near it and in it for 8 nights
over no beach at all????
Now you see my dilemma??????????
Your thoughts?
I am driving myself nuts over
thinking about it.
Ahhhhhhhh..............
Headache.

You know what I finally did?
I finally got a box and put all
my old major course books in it
to get rid of them.
Did I ever mention that orignially
I went to school to be a social worker?
Yes, me. I wanted to be a social worker!
What was I thinking?
I was thinking I wanted to help people!
I was also thinking about how there
was no math requirements! Ha!
I did not finish my degree in that area.
I think, yet again, that it was a blessing.
I don't think I was cut out to be a social
worker. I probably would have jumped out
of a 10 story building window or something!
I don't have the patience to help others
who don't want to help themself and I don't have
the tolerance for those who sit around with excuse
after excuse!
I acomplished 104 credit hours. It usually
takes 124 to get your bachelors degree.
Do you see how close I was?
Now I am I finally trying to finish my
bachelors. Of course, it is in a totally
different area--management.
I never thought nor imagined that I
wouldn't have graduated from college.
Isn't it funny how you dream of things
and you just assume things and then
lo and behold your journey in life takes
you places that you never imagined.
It takes you to places that you really don't
want to go and it takes you to places that you
do. I sit back and see how my choices have
lead me to where I am now.
Not a bad place becuz I am blessed, afterall.
Do you ever sit back and remember what you use
to dream about? What you wanted to be when
you grew up? Who you thought you would be?
The places you thought you would go? The person
you wanted to end up with? I remember it all
so clearly. I find myself tickled at some of thoughts,
ideas, wishes and dreams I had.
I am not where I thought I would be because boy!
I did not have a clue about this crazy, wonderful,
disappointing, painful, blessed 'thing' called life!
And so of course, all this reminds me of another quote
(afterall I am a quote freak!)
"It's not about the destination, it's about the Journey!!"
I wonder what the journey will entail next?

and so it sits here waiting for me;
waiting for me to say something, anything.
I feel my poor little blog is
getting lonely, missing me.
It wants me write about what is going
on, what is on my mind, even if it's
rubbish, it wants me to fill it up.
Don't know what's wrong with me
lately. I know I haven't run out of
things to say. There's always something
to say, may it be trivial, profound,
inspirational, funny, sad or
just wasted thoughts.
I am alive, incase you are wondering.
I am tired. Guess since it's winter time
and COLD, maybe not enough vitamin D,
warmth, and inspiration to jolt my mind
into blogging or maybe I am just being
plain ole lazy.
So be it. That's just the way it is.
I hopefully will become enthusiastic,
determined, zealous,and/or eager to be creative
soon.

Beach Sand by Raymond A. Foss

Maybe it is the memories
the change of pace that brings us there
the sense of vacation
maybe the smell of the place
the sights of the gulls, the dunes, the grasses
but oh it is the feel of it,
the crunch and slide of it
the feeling of beach sand
so different from dirt, soil, loam
no, not earthy, moist, rich,
but oh so granular and gritty
even when wet,
moveable paper spreading under toes
sliding beneath the soles
smoothing my skin
clearing my mind
unburdening me of the rest
drawing me to the tactile, the feel
of beach sand.

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Keeping it in
or letting it out
sometimes it's damned if you do
damned if you don't.
Felt disppointed about something today
and then there was fear and guilt.
Something bothered me today.
Something that could change everything.
Maybe I am over reacting.
Maybe every thing will be just fine.
I felt I was going along on calms seas
and all the sudden I see this dark cloud
in the distance. Uh-oh.
Will the dark cloud pass?
Will it just be a figment of my imaginations?
Or will my seas become rocky?
Guess only time will tell.
Till then I worry. Worry about what ifs.
Worry about what I have already thought
and what I have already said.
Did I say too much?
Should I have spoke up earlier?
It's just this tangled mess in my head
and I hate this worry, fear, dread,
and this feeling of not knowing what
is to come.

Originally I had posted a picture of me smiling
with my new do but now I do not feel like
smiling. I visited a fellow bloggers page

Bob

and saw that he lost his beloved dog, Jilli
and I am so sad. I sit here crying for his loss
and for his loving baby girl.

I am a huge animal lover as you have seen I
have posted pictures of my babies. I would
even have more little sweethearts if I had
the space.
Losing a pet is losing a family member.
It is devastating. My heart goes out to
Bob, his family and his little cutie,
Jilli. I wish there was something I could
do to comfort him.

Dearest Bob I hope you can feel my
prayers, my thoughts and my love.

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AFTER

As I have mentioned before I really have
been enjoying mojito's.

Mojito recipe
3 fresh mint sprigs
2 tsp sugar
3 tbsp fresh lime juice
1 1/2 oz light rum
club soda
In a tall thin glass, crush part of the mint with a fork to coat the inside. Add the sugar and lime juice and stir thoroughly. Top with ice. Add rum and mix. Top off with *chilled* club soda (or seltzer). Add a lime slice and the remaining mint, and serve.

So you can imagine how happy I was to discover
Bacardi Silver Mojitos in a bottle in the
beer aisle!!!!
I added fresh mint and lime!
Tasty!!!!
YUMMY!





























































BOTTOMS UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TODAY WOULD HAVE BEEN ELVIS'S 73RD BIRTHDAY!!!!
SO YOU KNOW I GOTTA PUT ELVIS ON MY PAGE TODAY!!

I know I have shared my tats before.
But I thought I would share them again.
You see I am wanting yet another.
I know where I am going to put it,
but the what is still up in the air.
I have some ideas of what I might like.

I was told that your tats should tell
a story of you. Every one that I have
has a meaning that reflects something
about me.

So I am curious what you would suggest.
MAYBE something you suggest will
help me decide what's next or MAYBE
what you suggest is something that I
may already be thinking about.

I am very curious what you have to say!

Spontaneity
"is the quality of being able to do something just because
you feel like it at the moment, of trusting
your instincts, of taking yourself by surprise and
snatching from the clutches of your well-organized routine,
a bit of unscheduled plea"
(author unknown)

This is what I want more of this year,
spontaneity!!!!!

I am a planner. I do make lists. I do have
goals but I happily admit that when I
spontaneously do something for the heck of
it, it usually is more fun!
I guess it is letting loose.
I want more fun, more surprises, more good
times. I want more going with the flow and
seeing what happens.

Not a bad thing to want this year.

A quote from the Gamlber himself,
Kenny Rogers,
"There is a trade off - as you grow older you gain
wisdom but you lose spontaneity."

I want both!

From Stephen Covey:
To ignore the unexpected (even if it were possible) would be to live without opportunity, SPONTANEITY!!!, and the rich moments of which life is made.

So I copied from Ed who copied from Bunny!!!
A New Year's Meme

1) Where did you begin 2007?
In bed. (Now get your mind out of the gutter!)
I was trying to sleep right on into the beginning of 2007 but several people in the neighborhood started letting off fireworks and I woke up. My husband turned on the TV since that is the only clock in the room. It was exactly 12:00. He kissed me, wished me a happy new year and goodnight.

2) What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
The same as every other day.

3) How did you earn your money?
The first half of the year I earned my money by being an unappreciated, stressed out
peon. The second half I happily earned my money since I changed employment and
realized what it feels like to be valued.

4) Did you have to go to the hospital?
Nope. I did have a scare with my dad and went to see him there.
Also, my sister.

5) Did you have any encounters with the police?
Nope.

6) Where did you go on holiday/travel?
The only place I went was Myrtle Beach to Biker’s Week in May of 2007.

7) What did you purchase that was over $1000?
Well, I went back to school and took out student loans. Does that count???

8) Did you know anybody who got married?
None that I recall.

10) Know anyone that passed away?
Yes. I went to the visitations at the funeral home to pay my respect 4 times this year.

11) Did you move anywhere?
Nope.

12) What concerts/shows did you go to?
None.

13) Are you registered to vote?
Yes

14) Where do you live now?
In Kentucky, ya’ll!

15) Describe your birthday:
First off, my birthday rules. If your b-day falls in Monday thru Thursday
then you can celebrate your b-day the weekend before and the weekend after.
However, it your b-day falls on the weekend, Friday thru Sunday, then you
only have that weekend to celebrate.
So my b-day was on a Saturday, I started out on Friday. My sister and I went
to one my favorite restaurants and had appetizers and martinis. Then went
to my “Cheers” place and did karaoke. Next day, “the day”, began by going to
breakfast at IHOP and then dinner with hubbie at this fantastic Cajun restaurant
in our town. I had the migon ecrivesse. Filet mignon smothered with the best
crawfish etouffe.

16) What’s one thing you thought you wouldn’t do but did in 2007?
Went back to school! YEAH!

17) What has been your favorite moment/s?
Too many too count! I really can’t pinpoint. Come on now! What is my name?
That’s righ……..Blessed! I continue to be blessed.

18) What’s something you learned about yourself?
That I can handle a lot of stress despite my father’s health scare and job problems,
and when you think you got it bad, it can get worse and when you think it’s worse,
somebody else has it even more terrible!

19) Any new additions to your family?
I adopted Elwood, my black pug in January of 2007.

20) What was your best month?
July becuz it’s summer time, 4th of July, sunshine, flip flops and I had started settling in
at my new place of employment.

21) What music will you remember 2007 by?
Everything from Fergie’s album “The Dutchess”

22) Who has been your best drinking buddy?
Hubbie

23) Made new friends?
Yep.

24) Favorite night out?
When I have the energy and the dough, Friday night.

As of right now it's not much but I will admit
it sure is pretty!!!

Happy New Year, Ya'll!
No I'm not hungover.
I look a little rough but
I feel fine!
What an interesting evening for me!
I ended 2007 being a bad girl.
To begin with I worked half a day yesterday.
Got off of work and was so tired. On top
of that I am not a real big fan of New Year's
celebrating. As I have mentioned before I
don't like that Auld Lange Syne song. It makes
me cry. I don't want to see the ball drop in Times
Square and I definitely don't want to see Post stroke
Dick Clark. It just depresses me. I don't know when
this New Year's Eve depression began but it has
come upon me as I have gotten older.
Anyway, since there was this important bowl
game happening yesterday for our local university,
the partying started early. As in 3:45 p.m.
(Game came on a 4 p.m.) As I said, I was tired.
Was invited to 4 different bowl/New Year's Eve parties/
gatherings. Some parties I just didn't want to
drive all the way their and take a chance of drinking
too much and then knowing I have dogs and must drive
all the back home. Didn't want to chance it.
So me and the hubbie went our local "Cheers". Yes,
sometimes you want to go where everyone knows your
name (and sometime not!). Anywho, this is where it
began. Sleepy Blessed in a bar. I want to wake up
I want coffee but I really want is the next big
thing a caffitini, a concoction of Absolut vanilla,
Godiva white and dark chocolate liquers and expresso
shaken and served chilled. Tasty! This little ditty
is served atone of my favorite restaurants which
happens to be almost next door to the bar I was in
and it definitely is delicious and will jolt your
self awake. Unfortunately, at 4:30 p.m. no one
looked like they were there (yet) and no one answered
the phone, so I did the next best thing: jolt
my system by mixing my drinks! I stared with
Tanqueray and tonic, then a flaming Dr. Pepper
minus the flame and then a Crown and 7up. I was
feeling pretty good so I switched to Coca cola. I was
definitely awake and feeling the nice buzzy feeling.
Not to buzzed not too drunk. My husband decides to
go home to feed the dogs and leaves me at the bar.
No problem. I know lots of people there. People come
and people go. I am being the social butterfly.
My brother n law buys me a shot of Jeiger. I decide
to sip on it and my coca cola. But before my other
brother n law left, his wife bought me another
flaming Dr. Pepper. So I was feeling pretty good.
Thank God I had ate lunch earlier!
Next thing I know one of my friends and I decided
to go make a short visit at one of our friends little
gatherings. We weren't driving so she called her son
to be our chauffeur. Thing is my friend had to lie
to her boyfriend about where we were going. You see,
the gathering we were makiing a quick stop at, was
an exboyfriend of hers. So we said we were going to
pop by a restaurant called Sal's so I could have
we could have a real good martini. (Martini's are not
the speciality of the pub we were in, as you know
pubs are beer and shot slinging places). We arrive
at "Sal's". LOL. Make us a drink. We visit. We mingle.
Not a big crowd but it's fun. We stay about an hour
and her sons comes to pick us back up. They drop me
at my home. I realize once home that I didn't go to
the grocery. I wanted to start a New Year's Eve tradition
of eating crab legs. Well, stupid me, decided that I
would drive. Honestly, I didn't feel too inebriated.
I still shouldn't have but I went to two grocery stores
and both were closed. So you know what we had for dinner?
Frozen White Castles and Andy Capp Hot Fries from our
local convenient store! I know you are salivating at the
thought!
So my evening was a good one. I stayed awake well
into the New Year! I didn't see the ball drop, I didn't
even see the clock switch over to 12:01 a.m. I remember
hearing motorbikes on TV and some Aussie named Robbie
Madison who jumped over some made up football field in the
Rio Hotel Casino in Las Vegas, I was too busy.
:::smile:::
So it was a good evening!

Now I want to hear about yours????????